Blog Entry 5/16/18
As a writer I want my creative outlets to be linear and easy to control. But, as a daughter of two artists, I should know better; that creative flow is not linear at all but can be erratic and with its own flow and energy. It also is connected to what I am going through in life (how much energy I have, and where my mind is). But there is a reason for all of this and I am following along, patient and steady in my conviction that what will be created and where I am when it is being created all has a reason and a meaning.
I am in the American Southwest in order to tell my story, one of many, but the one that has taken over my entire mindset. There is a reason for this location and I am not oblivious to this. In fact, I know when I am done with this project I can move forward from here. In the meantime projects closely related to these main stories, will be worked on.. for example the Murder Site Visit. I always wanted to wait and finish these projects, connected to reincarnation and my past life here.., before I move onto the next chapter, even though I know what I hope the chapters will be, or what I know I will be working on in them.
But the other week I saw a movie that changed me on some level. It tugged at my heartstrings and made me think of my Dad, how I long to be near him and see him more often; as well as to get his story down. Then a story in the news a few days later reminded me of the strange circumstances of my Mom’s cancer, and how people are still suffering from it.. which also reminded me I have to get her story out there, as well as her art out to the masses. Then quite suddenly my friend’s Father died, which rattled me. He was such a character, someone you would think of not knowing but of reading about in a book. He too, needs his story told.
There have been strange arrows in my life and in my eye line, leading me in a different direction. To completely threw caution to the wind and do what I need to do to move forward, in all things and in all ways.
As my favorite musicians preaches in his new album, “We are connected by love, I need to remember that which I have tried to run from.” All of this brought to the forefront of my being my identity as an Artist Daughter, and much more.
Because of all this, for a time, Dave disappeared and I had a very hard time tapping into his mindset and memories of his life. That stalled my work on Echo and his biography. but since then I have meditated and have been able to reconnect with him and we will continue. But I also am now connected with myself more, my own identity, which makes this life a lot easier to deal with and a lot more interesting. I now have a fire and a passion for my own life that for the longest time I lacked. This is a win-win situation really, and I know exactly what I want to do now. I am about to shake things up in my life in a big way.. and change everything for the better.
~Sophia Bungay @wickedlydrivenmedia 5/16/18